Shipping Wheel: Tobi/Deidara

Where am I?

I can't see anything. I can barely feel anything. Just the odd...tingle. It's strange. I don't understand what's going on. Everything's dark and warped and I feel numb, like my mind isn't connected to my body. I was breathing, yeah, but as I became more aware of things I realised hardly any air came through. I was rasping, and every now and then my chest heaves with unbearable hacking coughs. Feeling spreads from my chest, and I'm sore. Sore and so very cold. It doesn't spread far. I'm almost nothing any more, but there's someone holding the remains of my hand.

I blew myself up. I remember now. I'd gone right for it, the last hope to take out that bastard, Sasuke. I have to see. I need my eyes to open.

And they do. But I still see nothing. Bright lights, but they don't hurt. My head can't hurt any more than it does already, to be honest.
"Senpai! Senpai, can you hear me?"
I let out a groan and shifted my weight, trying in vain to get comfortable.
"Senpai, please, don't move!"
Tobi. Looks like that idiot survived the blast, and still managed to find me.
A deeper voice spoke then. Quiet, but I was just about able to make out the words.
"Don't move. I can fix this, I can save you."
I tried to speak. My tongue felt like nothing more than a loose slab of meat.
"Hu...huoo?"
Who are you? Who else is there?
"Don't talk." The deeper voice commanded.
"To...bi...wh...wha...?"
"You tried to blow yourself up, senpai!" The deep voice was the one that spoke, but with an attempt to mimic the high, screechy quality to Tobi's voice. It wasn't going too well. It sounded as though the man was crying.

I began to see colours.

Black. A spotlight above me. A large circle of orange. Tobi. Twisting my head slightly, I can't find any other person. Tobi's the only one there, it seems, and he's trying to save my already doomed life.

"Why, senpai?"
The idiot is crying.
"Art...go out...with bang...had to..."
"You didn't have to do anything! All you had to do was come back to me!"
"Tobi...I'm...dy...dy..."
"I...I know..."
To my shock, he lifted his mask, wiping his eyes. If I could make my vision sharpen, I could see him.

Another hacking cough burns through me. I have something wet in my mouth. Blood. My life blood. I really am dying.

"I love you...I love you so, so much..." Whimpered the tear-jerked voice. "Senpai...Deidara...Deidara-chan, I love you so much." Arms around me. Holding me close. I still can't see and it's driving me crazy.
Not for long.
I reached up weakly.
My hand...my fingers...all I see is blood...
I brushed it against his pale cheek. "You too...I...I'm...so...sorry..."
"Don't be."
"For...ev...ry...thing..."
All those times I'd been so mean to him. He'd been vying for my affection for so long and I'd been too cold to accept it. He cared so much but he drove me crazy. And I just wanted to keep him at arm's length.

The truth was, I had to be cold. I was a terrorist. I was a criminal. I was straight! Right?

No, I'm not. I've wanted to hide it for so long, but the truth is I care so much about that idiot it hurts. It hurts that I can't be with him. Not like that. Even so, if I wasn't dying, I'm sure I'd be feeling so good, just knowing he likes me the same way. I just wish it wasn't like this. I wish we could...we could...

Tobi leaned in and at the same time, pulled me closer. I could see his mismatched eyes now. One light purple colour, one red. He kissed me tenderly and I could feel his tears on my cheeks, but at the same time it felt like they weren't my cheeks. This was it, I was going.
"I love you, Deidara. I'll see you on the other side, I promise."